For the past few years I felt pretty stagnant in my life and I decided to push myself to do something about it. “Do what scares you” was a phrase I heard in a movie, but it resonated with me. I understand that pushing myself out of my comfort zone should in theory give me a bump forward; so I’ve taken steps to do just that.
One of my “scary things” is to volunteer to help a sixteen year old girl-a Croatian refugee no less- with her S.A.T. It doesn’t sound crazy, but you’d be surprised at the pressure I feel to help this girl get into college. I’ve always been a good student, and I did well on my S.A.T., so it is unnerving to see her so intimidated by it. Seeing the wary look in her eyes when reviewing the college board guide makes me want to take the test for her.
I guess the scariest thing about this is that I give a piece of myself to help someone else. I put myself out there and who knows what is going to happen. But that is also the empowering part. That I might be able to help this girl. Give a piece of myself and make a tiny part of her world better.
I just started tutoring her, so I couldn’t say how it’s going yet, but she’s smart, and I’m going to do my best to get her into college…
Which I hope will help me get back into life.